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The GRAVE

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Wednesday, March 28, 2012, In : Poem

I toil for self approval,

And work for bitter praise.

Digging down into the

darkness,

Of a slowly growing grave.

My bloody hands lie broken,

And my shovel scrapes on

stone,

Until the hole that I´ve been feeding,

Is the only thing I own.

I stand, alone and empty,

And lose all hope within,

I´ll keep digging to the bottom,

Until they throw the dirt back in.

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Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Saturday, June 25, 2011, In : Technology

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Autumn Leaves

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Saturday, June 25, 2011, In : Poem

The moon cast a muted glow in my darkened room

Trying to lift my spirit from gloom.

But her attempt was all in vain,

For in my heart, a deep rooted pain

I use to believe, all is ephemeral,

But my heartaches seem like eternal.

I grew tired wearing a clown's mask,

Hiding the shadow of sorrow in my eyes.

Yes I cried not for my loss........

The dreams we shared, I tried to live,

Started to fall like an autumn leaves..

.....

MAGING SA DAPIT HAPON

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Saturday, June 25, 2011, In : Poem

Sa gabi na walang tala.

Sa panahong mapanglaw.

Mga pusong di naawa.

Mga hinimok na pananalanta.

Sa bingit ng basag na salamin,

nabubulok na kahoy,

nalalantang bukid,

nagbabadyang alanganin,

kasiguraduhan ng hamak,

kaisahan,

kawalan ng nagmamahalan.

Sa kawalan ng sinagtala,

sikat ng araw,

at kung kailang dapit hapon

at takipsilim ang nangingibabaw.

Heto’t payabungin ang baga,

ang liwanang ng kandila

Kailan Man Hindi ako Mawawala.

…

Again

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, June 23, 2011, In : Poem

Living again
The feeling's too familiar
Forgetting the end
To start yet another familiar beginning.

Pain of disbelief
Within this darkness you cast
I'm not there, and I don't want to be here
Come watch me shed my tears.

The undying connection
The misinterpretation of my heart's desires
The failure to understand could take me
Away to the self-providing world of insanity
There I will run in the open wilderness of the night
Running and hiding and searching for the one who will fight the fire
O...

Storm Hunter

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, June 23, 2011, In : Poem

Searching through the trees
Today there's a strong breeze
Residual hauntings resonate here
Desecrated by disgraces who never tasted fear.

Haunting through the storm
For things I may never know
Seeing your stride in my mind
Walking free for all time.

Come see my thoughts
Memories you awakened
Not one time you fought
Will ever be forsaken.

With a shield of thunder
And a sword of lightning
Storm hunter, yes, I am
Deep inside shivering with pain.

…

Playing The Game

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, June 23, 2011, In : Poem

Enter into an obscure world
Im a prisoner that is seen with the eye.
I am your soul
I am I
And I can see you right through... my view
As I wait for you... to watch me.

And I'm waiting
I'm creating
For you...

Take me to your world
Every day, your slave.
And I won't be a fool...
and I won't be afraid...

You betrayed
Play me now
Ruin my purity
Like silk from a spider... and I'm filthy.
I'll be it -- you'll see
You carry me around
Until you want to hear my sound
I once did too...
When instead ...

In The Presence of An Angel

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, June 23, 2011, In : Poem

Trying hard to perfect...
My mistakes...
Some kind of redemption, no protection...
Those dead days... I can't breath
Like I ruined... oh no... no!
Makes me sick
Definite hypocrite

Remember me, don't try to forget me
You made me afraid
You flourished while I decayed
Everyone said I was dead
Wandering like ghosts through my head
Your punishment found in flames...

I'm sorry, my love; pay no attention to them
They are what remain from a past that is dead
Can we be together?
It doesn't matter wh...

I Wish Im a Phoenix

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, June 23, 2011, In : Poem

I'm screaming behind this bars
On this world of selfish desire
Want no more than to escape
Free myself, that's I want to have.

But try hard as I might
I always get lost every night
Each passing day my strength grows weak
No one to hear me as I speak.

So I pray my breath to leave
Take away my life with it
Consume me with fire from hell
Go forth, you have a story to tell.

And leave me alone crying
With burning tears never ending
Making a pool of blood beneath my feet
My reflection laughing, ...

Promises

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Wednesday, May 4, 2011, In : Poem

Lonely nights passed me by

and I thought I never had anything

But you came my way

and you gave me everything.

Time has passed us by

but we didn't realize anything

We talked all night

and that night we found everything

We saw something in each other

that would last a lifetime

and that night that we talked

I wanted to make u mine.

There was something about u

so I just followed my heart

so I told you and you told me

and now nothing can tear us apart.

You fell in love ...

Forever.... You and Me

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Wednesday, May 4, 2011, In : Poem

We have passed through so much time
Merely existing as spirits soulfully entwined
You happened across my path one day
And decided that you’d like to stay.
Now we look at each other
And we are amazed at how far we’ve come
How our spirits have grown
And how quickly the seeds of our life were sown.
Someday, on the other side of forever
We will look back and reflect
How wonderful it was
How we’ve come to expect
More of ourselves and the world
Knowing how truly wonderful life can b...

Im Home....

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Wednesday, May 4, 2011, In : Poem

The night was dark, cold, foreboding
The ark I had hoped never to need
Sat ready and self- sufficient, awaiting the drops
The sky opened with gusting winds
and torrential rain
The new ocean tossed
and tumbled my simple craft
All alone a midst waves and thunder
I sit in my misery and wonder if the light will come
Forty days and forty nights passed over my dark soul
As the last drop falls and eerie silence descends,
I feel a new hope spring forth
But the time is not yet right
For my peace-lov...

What a Fool is a Lover Could Be (A sad story...)

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Wednesday, May 4, 2011, In : Poem

Diamonds shimmer
in the depths of the
calmest pond.
I reach for one,
but I can't touch.
Instead I create a current
and stir the murky depths
Mud and clay
cloud the once clear pool.
Only evidence is washed away
in a roaring wave.

The wave descends
and shatters the once still air
Into the voices
of a thousand tiny angels,
Each one crying out
for a lost soul to save.

As the river breaks
into the ocean of dreams,
I stare and wonder
in it's magnificence.
Dare I?
I stand at the banks

...

Sentiments of Thy Heart

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Wednesday, May 4, 2011, In : Poem

Even though you are so very far away,
You somehow seem nearer to me each day.
You are the life of my soul,
Making me feel whole.
You are the forever flaming fire,
Everything I could ever desire.
You are the spark of my dreams
All the ambition in my schemes.
You are my true best friend,
Someone whom I can always depend.
You are my star that guides,
Always there helping me to decide.
You are as close to me as can be,
Because you are a part of me.

Better than Bitter

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, April 28, 2011, In : All About Life

Many people are afraid of getting involved again after the collapse of a relationship. Some people would call them embittered, but beneath bitterness is fear. We have been hurt. We are afraid of being hurt again so we stop trusting men, or women.

I don't want to be one of those persons. This is not to say that I don't have my own fears. I do. Sometimes my fears are so huge they feel as if they will engulf me. But I'm willing to sit quietly in the center of those fears until they become some...

Let It Be

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, April 28, 2011, In : Poem

Some days the right person comes along at the right time
and reaches inside the churning maw of chaos and doubt
we have slipped within
opens a hand
we take hold
and choose to walk out

It's funny how a few well-placed words can offer clarity
and the world tilts
slides open
a sigh escapes our weary hearts
and we realize we've been holding our breath
for years

And quite suddenly we know the singular joy
of sitting deeply in the stillness of our own truth
our power, our plenary selves

Living My Life

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, April 28, 2011, In : Poem

Through sheer insanity,

I jump off the ring of fire that kept me in prison,

consuming all my strength.

Then freed0m on the apex of it is finally on my reach,

disregarding all the pessimisms, resentments and sarcasms..

I become whole again..

Which I've wanted years ago..

Mustering only a will power and an ounce of courage...

And a colossal amount of appreciation of life.

The Day I Die

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, April 28, 2011, In : Poem

Cry over my grave when I die,

That I could swim in the sea of your sorrow.

But please, never come in black,

I might get lost in the dark.

Keep the candle burning,

Never let the wind blow.

For as long as the flame is dancing,

I can find my way home.

To eternal bliss that can give me peace,

In your heart and mind, I shall rest.

When the sun bids you goodbye

and take refuge for the night,

I shall rise from my coffin

to give you warmth.

And when at night

the moon refuse to glow,

worry not my love

for the stars w...

Under The Moonlight

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, April 28, 2011, In : Love

When the world is resting,
and the night is still.
When the moon is the only source of light,
Can't help but think of you my love.

As the cold breeze passes by,
It brings shivers down deep in my spine.
Missing once more, the warmth of your love,
Oh, I just can't live when you're not around.

I close my eyes, I see you in the dark,
And feel your presence like a teardrops.
I open my eyes to tremble at your sight,
Holding me close, surrendering your life.

The feel of your body against mine,
Stir a sensation s...

On Loving... Part 3

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Friday, April 15, 2011, In : Love

Those who do not like it call it responsibility.

They play with it, calling it a game.

They are not living with it, calling it a dream.

Those who love each other, call it destiny.

If we lose love, then there must be a reason behind it.

The reason is sometimes difficult to understand, but we still have to believe

When He took something, He will be ready to give us much better.

We just have to wait patiently.

Why wait?

Because even if we wanted to make a decision, we need not want to rush.

Because e...

Read and ponder ....

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Wednesday, April 13, 2011, In : All About Life

When we find someone whose uniqueness is in line with our's ...

we join him and fall into a similar oddity

called LOVE ...

There are things that do not want us to disconnect,

People who do not want us to leave ...

But remember ... that's not the end of the world ..

but the beginning of a

new life ..

Happiness is for those who cry,

those who hurt,

those who have been looking ...

those who have been wanting..

and those who have tried ..

Because they can appreciate

how importan...

Are You Being Too Hard on Yourself?

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Friday, April 8, 2011, In : All About Life

Most of us are subject to guilt feelings. We may be spending so much time feeling guilty everyday. Guilt for the most part is very constructive. It's an important civilizing influence that keeps people from hurting, distressing or disappointing others. However, the system that works for good can also malfunction.

If your guilt feelings don't lessen after you've tried to make amends, or if you are feeling guilty for things you can't control, you're probably suffering from false guilt, whic...

How could someone with so little be so happy?

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Tuesday, April 5, 2011, In : All About Life

"Thank you, Sir. Praise the Lord!" the old beggar exclaimed in clear English as I shove a five-peso coin into his hand. I was on my way to meet a friend at a restaurant near Raja Solaiman Park one rainy October day when I chance upon the kindly old man, charming passers-by for alms with his tooth-less smile and sunny disposition.

Minutes later, as I sat comfortably in the restaurant with my friend, the memory of the old man lingered in my mind. After our meal, we go to the spot where I left...

A Tell Tale Story

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Friday, April 1, 2011, In : All About Life

"True!–nervous–very, very dreadfully nervous I had been and am; but why will you say that I am mad? The disease had sharpened my senses–not destroyed–not dulled them. Above all was the sense of hearing acute. I heard all things in the heavens and in the earth. I heard many things in hell. How, then, am I mad?"

"…Now this is the point. You fancy me mad. Madmen know nothing. But you should have seen me. You should have seen how wisely I proceeded–with what caution–with what fores...

In My Humble Opinion

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Friday, April 1, 2011, In : In My Opininon

About the only thing I don't have a strong opinion on is why there is even a small percentage of people out there who always respond to surveys with "no opinion." Yet there they are, in every poll, the no-opinion people. A question could be as simple as "Is Michael Jackson dead?" or "Is durian truly edible?" and this people will have nothing to say, either way. Most of us are just brimming with beliefs, attitudes, judgement calls and crank theories. We freely give our wisdom in bars, on radio...

It's the Making of Resolutions that Counts

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Tuesday, March 29, 2011, In : All About Life

A friend recently told me that he saw the picture I've posted on my facebook. Its about my New Year's resolution to quit on my smoking habit.At first, I've tried to keep that resolution. Every year, I produce a sadly familiar repertoire of aspirations dealing with that bad habit. I always mean well, but it's clear that I lack firmness of purpose.Well, to my mind, thats the essence of New Year's Resolution. It's a wet sponge, slurping up the black marks of the past, leaving a clean slate for t...

FAKE (a diary of mine 2007)

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Tuesday, March 29, 2011, In : Featured Articles from Friends

Fake, thats all i am

My meaningless smile,

My hollow laugh,

It’s all an act.

Outside I’m happy

Inside i’m not,

My life is empty

My soul is dead.

I hide all the sadness,

I don’t want people to care,

I’m a useless cause

My sadness, I will not share.

As the emotions get stronger,

I have but one release

With one quick slash,

I finally Rest In Peace.

crash.. slit my wrist and calm down. 12x

and the pills sliding down my throat, with the liquid shamp0o.

pushing it down through my st0mach, i was blind, i...

Rising Spirit

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Monday, March 28, 2011, In : All About Life

The rhythm of my hand goes well with the drops of ink and with words floating in my brain. I do not have highfaluting words to speak of, instead, the way of my emotions and the labyrinth that my soul’s going through are the ones obliging me to put the significance of other’s life into scriptures. But, ironically, I do not find my life as important as others do consider it. The poetry of contrast the world has offered me evoked my sensations to be involved in its abyss. In there I grew, l...

Tips From A Successful Slacker

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Monday, March 28, 2011, In : All About Life

Need to look busier? Make sure your office appears swamped at all times. Your desk should always look like you're in the midst of some incredibly time-sensitive project. This way you can safely maximize the time you spend checking your facebook.
For added protection, make sure the papers on your desk are arranged in stacks. A calculator, a few stray apples and a strategically placed pair of eyeglasses will round out the organized chaos effect.
Finally, some work on your computer screen that yo...
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Its a Game...

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Monday, March 28, 2011, In : All About Life

Win-win.

Win-lose.

Lose-lose.

We all hear that terms not just on games we play but also on our every day play of the game called LIFE.

What does it mean, one may ask. Well, if I’m the one to answer, it refer to the possible outcomes of a game or dispute involving two sides, and more importantly, how each side perceives their outcome relative to their standing before the game.

For example, a “win” results when the outcome of a negotiation is better than expected, a “loss” when the out...

Am I OK?

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, March 24, 2011, In : Love

“It will be okay…” But I know it won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t."

It's never okay to lose someone important to you. You can never really let someone go but all you can do, and in fact, what you should do, is move on. You, after all, are the master of your own life. Therefore, you are responsible for your own happiness. And the only way you can be happy again is if you recognize this fact. God, after all, gave you free will. In life, we can never have everything we want b...

Why?

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Wednesday, March 23, 2011, In : Love

Your life’s a mystery,

mine is an openbook.

If I could read your mind,

I would’ve take a look.

What have you got to fight?

What would you need to prove?

Hiding with all life’s lies,

but that’s the only truth.

What have you got to say

of the shadow of the past?

What are you gonna be

willing to lose?

To gain someone special

to win your cause?

What have you got to hide?

Who will it compromise?

Where do we have to be?

So you can be happy

and I would be free?

How could we be so blind,

not to see the heart’...

Flying with a Broken Wings

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Wednesday, March 23, 2011, In : All About Life

How many times have I tried to scape

but until now I’m still a captive.

Behind the bars of your selfish love

trying desperately finding a way out.

Who could save me in this terrible plight?

Hold my hand and take away all the pain?

Open this cage where I’m in,

and show me the way where to begin?

Like a bird who just earn its freedom,

I shall fly towards the sky....

Even with a broken wings.

Who I Wanna Be?

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Tuesday, March 22, 2011, In : All About Life

I'd rather be a little boy with his head on the clouds,

doin' nothing but day dreaming of love.

Instead of the guy who sees the dark before the light,

the one who thinks he has everything under control...

when everything just reachin' the breaking point...

This is Me

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Tuesday, March 22, 2011, In : All About Life

The face of the dawn seems too far away,

For I can't wait to start my day.

New beginning, new stories unfold...

Creating yet another memory to hold.

This is me, yes, I am me...

I'm not a mystery....

Just living my life,

of who I want to be.

All About Love

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Tuesday, March 22, 2011, In : Love

First love, I thought, may cut and mark us the deepest, but love that lasts and grows does so because it joins and nurtures what is dearest, finest and noblest in two people. And because it understands and forgives what is less so.
First love may register in the blood with dizzying effect, but the love that endures takes up residence in the soul. In this way, love becomes something far more powerful than bone and flesh. It completes us, gives us the wholeness we need to navigate safely through...
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SIGNS OF JUDGEMENT DAY

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Monday, March 21, 2011, In : Judgement Day

Major Signs:

There are two times when the doors of repentance are absolutely closed. One is after the appearance of major signs of the Day of Judgment; and the other is when the death comes on one's neck, which is called ghargharah (the gargle of death).

The major signs come right after the other; i.e., in a sequence.

According to the Companions of the Prophet (Sal Allahu 'alaihi wassallam), there are TEN major signs of the Day of Judgment, altogether.

1. Smoke (Dukhaan)

2. Anti-Christ (Ad-Da...

RE-BALANCING YOUR LIFE

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Monday, March 21, 2011, In : All About Life

'How's your day?' a question that on my bad days makes me grouse and rant a reply. But after that, I would vow silently for the umpteenth time, never to lose perspective again.

For many of us, work lays claim to our time and emotion, possessing us completely as any spouse or child. But those of us who think we have hard jobs can learn a lot from those who really do.

I wonder how some people manage to counsel rape victims, investigate murder scenes or a rescue victims on the aftermath of a disas...

The PATH

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Saturday, March 19, 2011, In : Poems & Photography

See the path over which I trudged

had become a highway of opportunity

And realize that the road which once was

so rugged and steep,

was really a beautiful path

to the top of my world!

(Photos by: Francis Castillo)

Whats in a Roof?

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Saturday, March 19, 2011, In : Poems & Photography

Poets may praise a wattle thatch

Doubtfully waterproof;

Let me uplift my lowly latch

Beneath a rose-tiled roof.

Let it be gay and rich in hue,

Soft bleached by burning days,

Where skies ineffably are blue,

And seas a golden glaze.

(From the "Red-Tiled Roof" poem by Robert William)

(Photo by: Francis Castillo)

Hello? Hey, I'm invisible...

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Saturday, March 19, 2011, In : Technology

A funny thing happened on the way to the communications revolution: we stopped talking to one another.The landlines and mobile phones used to connect you to the absent. Now it makes people sitting next to you feel absent.Why is it that the more connected we get, the more disconnected I feel? Every advance in communications technology is a setback to the intimacy of human interaction.As almost every conceivable contact between human beings gets automated, the alienation index goes up. You can'...
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ON LOVING II

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, March 17, 2011, In : Love

"Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to been slaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other p...

ON LOVING

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, March 17, 2011, In : Love

When love beckons to you, follow him, Though his ways are hard and steep. And when his wings enfold you yield to him, Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you. And when he speaks to you believe in him, Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning. Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in th...

World Peace! Anyone?

Posted by Lawrence Corpuz on Thursday, March 17, 2011, In : World Peace

As I am reading the news on the Sunday's issue of the Phillipine Star about what was happening in the middle east countries, I couldn't help but deeply touched by all my brother Muslims for the emotional and physical anguish their going through. Muslim countries political system is akin to dictatorship we had during the term of the late President Marcos. Their political spectrum only compose of far left and far right with the innocent civillians in the middle.
Many have suffered that could hav...
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